Love Bits- 2

 
Sunrise in you
Sunset in me
These lingering moments
Those thoughts after
Silence and Distance
I feel you with me.
 

When I see you. The world, it stops. And all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you.There’s nothing else. No noise, no people, no worries, no thoughts, no yesterdays and no tomorrows. The world just stops and there’s just you. Its beautiful. When you go, the world starts again and I dont like it much. I can live in it but dont  like it. I just walk around in it, waiting for you to stop my world again. I love it when it stops. Its the most beautiful feeling in the world. Its the best thing to sense and see. That’s why I stare at you…….

And as I write this, i sing,

You and I, in this beautiful world,
Green grass, blue skies,
In this beautiful world
You and I, winding lanes as streams go by.

Not(e) in the mood-18

She’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if she can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if she admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can.

He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect for more than he can give. Don’t analyze.

Smile when you make each other happy, yell when you make each other mad, and miss each other when not around. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect people don’t exist, but there’s always one person that is perfect for you.

Not(e) in the mood- 17

People always fall in love with the most perfect aspects of each other’s personalities. Who wouldn’t? Anybody can love the most wonderful parts of another person. But that’s not the clever trick. The really clever trick is this: Can you accept the flaws? Can you look at your partner’s faults honestly and say, ‘I can work around that. I can make something out of it.’? Because the good stuff is always going to be there, and it’s always going to pretty and sparkly, but the crap underneath can ruin you.

In desperate love, we always invent the characters of our partners, demanding they be what we need of them, and then feeling devastated when they refuse to perform the role we created in the first place.

To be fully seen by somebody, understood by them, and be loved anyhow – this is a human offering that can border on miraculous and that my dear is pure love!

Happy Valentines Day

I have written about Valentines Day before. The previous years. I have celebrated it  for many many years. I have hoped every year that I’d finally have the man who would just make all this wait meaningful. And this year I have been blessed. No we dont know each other for too long. No we havent spent too much time together. No we havent talked forever. No we havent even spent more than 10 minutes alone but inspite of all this, there is an assurance and a strange sense of bliss just knowing that this man is the one who completes me. In knowing that this man accepts me and loves me with everything that I am and not. And that is love in the purest form. We’re all a little weird. And life is a little weird. And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall into mutually satisfying weirdness—and call it love—true love! Now, I know.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby(yeah I know. you must be thinking how I can be comfortable in silence because I yap all the time. thats exactly my point!!!!)Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.

So my dear, here’s to our first valentine together. No relationship is perfect, ever. There are always some ways you have to bend, to compromise, to give something up in order to gain something greater…The love we have for each other is bigger than these small differences. And that’s the key. Happy Valentines Day Ro. May you and I spend the rest of our lives in a way we thought was possible only in the sweetest dreams.

Their first love

Over the years, love has changed. Our really old forefathers never even knew about love. It was all basic human needs just like water and food. And then human beings evolved. Emotions came into being. I think emotions came first and then god invented hormones. :) Anyhow, eons later. With the ascent of cinema came an era of love. People were made to and forced to beleive that love was what made the world go around.  Bah! But yes no matter how I try to run away from it, somethings  still make you wonder if the humans were really right when they thought love made the earth revolve.

The first time your eyes sparkle on hearing his name.
The first time you’d run to pick up the telephone before your parents could get it.
The first time you dressed carefully hoping he would notice.
The first time the joy of a secret was in not sharing. Or maybe sharing with a few friends. Very few.
The first time you pushed aside that feeling of maybe-it-is-wrong.
The first time you wondered how it would be to kiss and blushed at the thought.
The first time you sat in front of a paper and tried to write as prettily as possible. Love stories meant more than they ever did…

Yes, first loves are special.

It was their first love too. Both of them, who’d tell me almost everything, didn’t tell me this. That’s when I realized it must be.

I sat in the car watching both of them talk. Or watched them make deliberate attempts not to talk to each other. I was given way too much attention. After all, I was the guest:)

She was tired, she said after sometime. Looking at the chocolates I had bought them , she handed it over to him, “That’s my life. Be careful.”

Kids and their need for drama, I thought sleepily.

I saw him look for a space to put her precious chocolates. Nothing deemed fit a place to lay them, for I saw him look around and score off the numerous possibilities.

I saw him even look at the place near the dashboard where my poor mobile moved left and right, as my crazy driver veered. Oh, they weren’t my life anyway!

She was a quick sleeper. And after making sure she was, I saw him place her chocolates carefully into the pocket of his shirt.

Oh, of course I was asleep. I didn’t see a thing. I wouldn’t say a word.;)

Queen of Hearts

Fairytale wedding it was of the century. Heir to the throne marries the beautiful 18year old girl. What killed the romance? The return of his ex-girlfriend or her unreal expectations? The truth crashed in the tunnel chased by the paparazzi. He remains the heir. She has long since been canonized ‘The Queen of Hearts’.

P.S- A tribute to Princess Diana- may you remain in our hearts forever and a day.

Sacred Secrets

He was different from every other man she had ever known. Yes, both of them were in relationships before, but this was a different experience. For both. They both knew each other for long and had gone out together on several occasions. Whether it was their age or whether it was their innocence was not clear but they never lost their composure when being in the midst of friends/ people. She had a man and he had a woman. But they had a bond. That was evident.

It wasn’t till years later that they spoke to each other in a way they always wanted to. Conversations were minimal. After all, actions spoke louder than words.

She was amazed. How could two people come close to each other only to make love but have no intention of falling or being in love? Was that possible? Ofcourse it was! Everything was possible for them. They were two people who loved treading the less taken paths and breaking rules!

Staying together was the rarest of luxuries. It hadn’t happened many times and it wasn’t to happen many times. But the first time they did, he hadn’t slept too well, rubbing her shoulders distractedly every few minutes. And she’d slept curled in his arms with eyes that even when open spoke nothing but of secrets hidden safe.

Waking up early, he’d ordered tea and taken it to her, willing her to wake up. And she did. The tea sat on the table while he made love to her as if he hadn’t seen her for eons. Later he’d woken up  to find her missing in bed. With a panic that refused to be curbed, he’d almost leapt up to rush out looking for her. But she was in the same room, sitting on the chair reading.

Noticing the movement, she’d looked at him over her book. And as if continuing a conversation that had been suspended, she’d read to him in clear tones words that rang true in the light of dawn breaking.

“All men are untruthful, inconstant, false, chatterers, hypocritical, proud, cowardly, contemptible and sensual; all women are perfidious, artful, vain, inquisitive and depraved.” She must have skipped a few lines for the pause was a thoughtful one. “But there is in the world a holy thing and sublime, and it is the union of two of these so imperfect and so dreadful beings.”

Pausing she’d looked at him through eyes softened by the sincerity of the words read. In her voice, proud and arrogant led by knowledge of acceptance, she’d read on.

“We are often deceived in our love; we are often wounded and often unhappy, but still we love, and when we are on the brink of the tomb we shall turn round, look back, and say to ourselves: I have often suffered, I have sometimes been deceived, but I have loved. It is I who have lived, and not an unreal being created by my pride and boredom.”

And with perfect knowledge of imperfect mankind and in their superiority of knowing and living life in terms that scorned the weakness by a name called love, they would make love again.

Their fears hidden from the world just like the bond they shared.