Posted in close to heart, m@dness

Of HIGHS and lows

I do not seem to be at my creative best these days.In fact I don’t feel like doing anything at all.I am not happy.I ain’t even sad.I am just stuck somewhere in the middle.
Have any of you ever felt that way?-Stagnant?Bored?Inanimate?
It’s kind of like being injected with chloroform.It takes away the pain.But it also dulls all your other senses.
I don’t like it.I’d rather have the agony.Atleast that won’t make me feel so….dead.
I mean…these days I’m so bored you’ll find me on Facebook playing stupid games.
I don’t even know why I’m indulging in these inane activities.
It’s like I want to escape from something.Or maybe everything.


If flowers were to ever bloom again-
In this dead garden of mine.
Then I’d kneel down,as if in prayer.
And whisper your name.

If the clouds were to ever move aside-
And reveal the sun,
I promise to hold myself together-
And never come undone.

If the lonely winds were to ever blow my way-
And ease this ever-lasting pain-
Maybe then I’ll regain my faith-
And never lose it again.

If I were to ever see you again-
Like in some pleasant,long-forgotten dream-
I would not ask you why-
Or how or when.
But only tell you stories-
That have never been told before.
And watch a glorious sunset together-
Just once more.

sigh* I think I need a vacation.



There is a deep and cosmological connection between my birth, my parent's decision to name me what they did, my profession and my education. This brings me to the conclusion that fate is predetermined and like in Hindu mythology, is written by Brahma when someone is born. Example: My name is unique. I did my grads in Psychology. I then did my masters in HR (offshoot of following all the psychos). I then did the ultimate decision of joining an MNC in ............. beat it, BUSINESS DEVELOPMENT. So, I have the concept 'MAD' in my name, my education, my choice of career and all the milestone decisions of my life. Now, is it predetermined or what ? :-D

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