Posted in m@dness


I feel blank today.
Unusually blank.
And unusually not-so-positive.
And I don’t even know what to write down.
But I am going to,anyway. Scribble down whatever comes to my mind.
The past few days have been weird.
I’ve been perplexed about most of the things.
I’ve been trying to hold on to happiness.
I’ve been fighting back my tears.
I’ve been ignoring my instincts.
I’ve cut down on people.
I have so many things to do. But I don’t feel like doing any.
There’s just one crazy dream that I’m clinging on to
And I’ve been waiting for something cryptic.
I’ve been cribbing over stupid things,driving my friends mad.
I’ve been thinking about the past.
And I’ve been over-thinking endlessly.
I’ve been doing everything that I shouldn’t be.
But it’s happening anyway.
And this post probably doesn’t make much sense.

I think I’ve got a bit of writers block.

I keep going to write a post and then my mind goes blank. I should go and stay in a log cabin in the middle of a forest and look out over a lake. Well that’s what they always do in the movies isn’t it?

Think my main barrier is that there has been a lot going on over the past few weeks, a lot of ups and downs, and I’m not confident enough to be as honest as I want to be. I promised myself I would be honest when writing this , but it takes a bit of getting used to. I’ll get there though.



There is a deep and cosmological connection between my birth, my parent's decision to name me what they did, my profession and my education. This brings me to the conclusion that fate is predetermined and like in Hindu mythology, is written by Brahma when someone is born. Example: My name is unique. I did my grads in Psychology. I then did my masters in HR (offshoot of following all the psychos). I then did the ultimate decision of joining an MNC in ............. beat it, BUSINESS DEVELOPMENT. So, I have the concept 'MAD' in my name, my education, my choice of career and all the milestone decisions of my life. Now, is it predetermined or what ? :-D

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