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Let me go

Someone was right when they said, “dreams…what would I not give to have control over them”

What wouldn’t I give too?

You were the last thing that came to mind every night when I fell asleep. Lying in the dark room, where the thin shaft of light from the light that forever glows in the house,I will myself not to think of you…

Someone was also right when they said the more you try not to think of something, the more it will haunt you.

After ages I dreamt of you…

Forget the place, its not important. Forget the others, they are not important either

I see you and I gasp. As always you make me do that. It’s been a while and I still remember your face. Your eyes. The rough hair and your lips that would give Angelina Jolie an ego! Your long fingers. You haven’t changed a bit… or have you?
I see you and I gasp. And I walk past you while my heart is hammering a thousand beats. I can’t walk away. I walk once again past you, pretending I don’t see you…
You smirk. I know you do. I don’t have to look at you to know what you are doing.
I walk past you again. You catch hold of my hand, “You can’t ignore me…you know it. And you know I know…”
My arms hurt. Let me go… 
“You don’t want to go… You can never go…”

I want to. Please… it’s after months that I feel so… let me go… please let me go…Damn it, don’t make me feel guilty… Don’t make me feel guilty for wanting to love again… let me go… Please let me go…

It is then that a force within me acts to free myself of you and I run.




There is a deep and cosmological connection between my birth, my parent's decision to name me what they did, my profession and my education. This brings me to the conclusion that fate is predetermined and like in Hindu mythology, is written by Brahma when someone is born. Example: My name is unique. I did my grads in Psychology. I then did my masters in HR (offshoot of following all the psychos). I then did the ultimate decision of joining an MNC in ............. beat it, BUSINESS DEVELOPMENT. So, I have the concept 'MAD' in my name, my education, my choice of career and all the milestone decisions of my life. Now, is it predetermined or what ? :-D

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