Its one of those Moanday when reality really gets to you n leaves you feeling real helpless about things happening or not happening in your life. Sometimes you see things happening, see people facing situations , which really make you wonder what these people are made of! And sometimes life throws you a curve ball and you have to face similar situations n then again you wonder “what kinda stuff are u made of?”
And then like I said……there are days when you wonder what you would do….
1)if every single day of your life you wake up smiling making up reasons to do so and going to bed crying!
2) if you realize that someone has taken away your power to dream and no matter what you do, all you ever get are nightmares!
3) if your family- the only force which the world says is worth living for is the one who thinks you are a burden that they have to live with!
4) if to make matter worse, tell you that they think so.
5) if you are made aware and reminded of your shortcomings and mistakes every single minute the more u try to forget bout them.
6) when you are the only one left out.
7) when you have to pretend to love the person you hate the most.
8) if you have to see the person u love most walk away to never even turn and ask you if you would be alright
9) when u can no longer trust your opinions bout things n people.
10) if the innocence of trusting people , of believing friends, of dreaming bout your knight in shining Armour the innocence of those beliefs you always had just leave you n go away all at once without any prior warning n you suddenly find yourself a changed person, n as people and more particularly friends say ,changed for the worse, cold , curt n most of all hurting.
11)when you realize suddenly that you are liking it this way.
12) if you break all ties with someone when you realize that you are opening up again.
13) if the “new changed” you has always been the one person you would have hated to become, yet u don’t seem to hate yourself now.
14)if the people around you misunderstand you n you no longer feel it is important to clear up their misunderstanding even when you freaking know that this might just lose the bonds you spent lifetime building!
15)when nothing really feels important to you anymore n you realize you are becoming more n more self centred by the minute n you don’t give a damn!!
16) When people, their mere sight gives you the creeps
17) if the only thing you want to do is to stare into oblivion!
18) When you begin to think that your misery is infectious and start staying away from people because you think that you might just infect their happiness!
19) When you stop and stare at a long distance bus and actually contemplate getting on it and running away!
20) if your miss goody two shoes attitude was changing to a snap at everyone attitude!