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Love is all around me

Never judge a post by its title 😉 I am not going to write about the famous Wet wet wet song or my nostalgia associated with it. However, these days this song keeps playing in my head..like a constant background music of sorts.  SO, back to my post…We, Ro n I celebrated 50 days of being married and one month of me arriving here in a nice and soft way. He made dinner(chicken Ro style) and we binged on Ice cream and cake. As I lay awake that night, my thoughts went back to the beginning. In life, there are some moments that stay frozen inside our minds. I dont have many but the ones I have will just not go away. The first time I laid my eyes on ro or my first sight of him is one such moment my brain seems to have frozen. He says I shouldnt write about it coz it’ll embarass him. 🙂 why would I let an opportunity pass!

While our parents seem to think that we first met at my place, we stay corrected. If the first date and first impression is supposed to decide things, we’d never get married! We decided to meet at my favourite coffee place(thats a post for another day), Cocoa tree. He said he’ll be there at 11 am and I had to sit inside, waiting inside the cafe which was still not open for the day( the perks of being a regular). So while I waited anxiously for 11:00 am, I order a usual Irish Chocolate drink. He calls to say he’ll be a few minutes late. Ahem…First date…n late. The friends said, dont wait, get up n leave. He is just not worth it. I decided to wait anyway since he said few minutes. And then…he arrived. At 11:45 am on 8th February 2013, I laid my eyes on him for the first time and somehow I knew it wasnt the last I’ll see of him. His hand, is what I saw first and then his ass and then his face. Yes, in that order. No, when I saw his hand I didnt know it was his. It was only when I saw his face that I realised it was him! Rest as they say is history…

To be honest, I was scared of a lot of things then. Funny as it may sound now, I had almost decided not to say yes to anybody. I was scared. Of a lot of things. Opening up to a new person, an unknown person. Committing to someone when I didnt know how committed he was or would be. Fear of being ripped apart, again. Loving again, apprehension and what not. But then, the moment I saw him first, it was amazing the way my heart felt light. Like a sign that this was it, this was the heart I was meant to be in. As cheesy as it may sound, it was true. When I think back now, I know it was the best decision ever.

A marriage is magical. It’s poetic, the rhythm of each day as it settles into a routine, the crackle as we figure out the differences. It’s  full of promise, excitement, surprises. It’s where dreams just might come true. There don’t really have to be harps playing, or birds singing, or rose petals falling from the sky everyday. And there are definitely days when the romance is dead, when there are arguments and when the differences become a bit annoying… but if you look around, things are pretty amazing…its lovely, its magical..its marriage.

 
The day we met
Frozen, I held my breath
Right from the start
I
 knew that I found a home for my heart

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I’m afraid to fall
But watching you stand alone?
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
I have died everyday waiting for you
Darling don’t be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I’ll love you for a thousand more
 
                                             – Christina Perri- A Thousand Years
 

Oh and when I asked him what his first memory of me was, he stared at me, blank. So typical!

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See you soon

A phrase as simple as see you soon could mean a million things..

And I’m left peeling layers off that message: what it could have meant.

Could it be a happy exclamation of love?

Or an expression of longing….?

Or an admonition?

Or a reminder?

Or maybe nothing at all. But even then, it speaks to me so much than an ‘I’ll see you” or a “see you around” would. Because it definitely meant “something”

Especially on a weekend….

when you dont have anything planned yet  😉

Oh..happy weekend.

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Love Bits-5

I waited all my life not knowing that my better half, the other half of my soul was just a few streets away from my house. Same school, same tuition and still not bumped into each other. 26 years is a looooong time to waste. Now that I know where my better half is, I cant wait to start.

You think you have seen it all, heard it all, experienced it all. Bountiful is your life, full and complete. Or so you think, until someone comes along and makes you realise what you have been missing all this time. Like a mirror that reflects what is absent rather than present, he shows you the void in your soul , the void you have resisted seeing and fills it a love thats unconditional and divine.

The person can be a lover, a friend or family. What matters is to open your heart to find that soul that will complete you.

Thank you Ro for giving me the time to open up. For having the patience to wait. For letting me be myself and for agreeing to live my dream. I simply love you.

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Not(e) in the mood- 25

Watching the rain can give you a million things to ponder about. If you have ever paid attention to people, you’d realise that while pretty flowers are instantly plucked, few people pay attention to plants with thorns and prickles. The more intelligent ones would tell you that great medicines often comes from these less pretty flowers.

Isn’t it the same with love? How can love be worthy off its name if one only selects the good part and leaves out the hardships. It is easy to enjoy the good and dislike the bad. Thats human nature. Anybody can do that. The real challenge is to love the good and the bad together, not because you have to take the rough with the smooth but because you need to go beyond such descriptions and accept love in its entirety.

When you love, embrace everything the other person has to offer. The good, the bad, the good days, the bad days, the pretty face, the bad hair days, the expressions of hapiness, the mood swings, the passion, the anger, the love and the hate. For it is only when you accept the nasty part can you truly enjoy the good part that he or she is 🙂

Until next time….love a lil more.

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Not(e) in the mood- 24

When you are in a relationship, some days are spectacular and some days you feel that the whole thing might be a huge mistake.It can be scary to find out you’ve been wrong about something but we can’t be afraid to change our minds, to accept that things are different, that they’ll never be the same, for better or for worse. We have to be willing to give up what we used to believe. The more we’re willing to accept what is and not what we thought, we’ll find ourselves exactly where we belong. Thats when I think, maybe we should all just believe it, all this “meant to be” stuff. Why not believe it, really? Who doesn’t want more romance in their life? Maybe it’s just up to us to make it happen. To show it whenever you can and be meant for each other. I am sure that’ll make everything alright.

Then again, there don’t have to be fireworks all the time, or birds flying all at once, or wind blowing in a very swish swash way. And there are definitely days when the romance is dead… but if you look around, things are pretty amazing. So stop for a second, enjoy the beauty, feel the magic, drink it in because it may not last forever. The romance might fade, things will happen, people will change, love may die but maybe not today. It doesn’t have to be today.

And when we follow our hearts, when we choose not to settle, a weight lifts, the sun shines a little brighter, and for a brief moment, we realize that love does conquer all.

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Perfect!

Today is friday(happy day) and thank god it is! The man is busy and I miss him. Because he is busy I have been getting some time with the girls. Conversations with any of the or all of the girls are always exciting. It always sparks a post 🙂

There are only 3 books that i found so damn interesting that I sat up the whole night to finish. One was this book called Perfect. I cant remember the author or I would have posted a link. It was a love story and I was up reading it the whole night and next morning I remember talking to the girls about how we could define our respective perfect guy. So basically, a conversation with one of the girls last night got me  thinking of what exactly would be the “perfect guy“!?! I know finding the perfect guy is difficult and next to impossible… I know… I just used an oxymoron there.

Just how difficult is it to find a man who’s comfortable with the independent strong opinionated women we are, but is willing to be our knight in shining armour when we need one? Someone who will understand our need to be fiercely possessed by issues of other people on most day, someone who can charm our friends and our sisters and our moms in a minute and be great friends with our dads and brothers… Someone who effortlessly becomes a part of our day to day existence (It works both ways, mind you, we’re not saying we wouldn’t want to do the same!), whether it’s driving to the beach cottage or eating whatever is available and sleeping the weekend away… Someone who, once in the blue moon, parties like there’s no tomorrow and is still completely at ease spending time with our extended families… Someone who cracks the worst jokes, instigates us and can still have the most meaningful conversations with us… Someone who lets you watch re re re runs of Greys Anatomy or Friends and read a book, all at the same time.Someone who would get all goofy just to see you laugh, someone who understands that sometimes we need some me time too.

Someone who would have no qualms about showing his love. SOmeone whose one kiss on the forehead would show the love he has. Someone who would not quiver while saying that I am his. Someone who is our emotional strength when need it the most, and trusts us enough to let us return the favour without thinking of it in those terms. Someone we can see ourselves do mundane things with, like watching all the mushy romantic movies and Bollywood gossip shows with. Someone who would watch action movies and sports chanel while letting us catch up on things we like.Someone we can talk to constantly, about nothing in particular, and still be completely comfortable watching the sunset with so many words unsaid and still understood between the two of us (Thus speaketh the hopeless incurable romantic in me!! :P)… Someone we want to go that extra mile for and NOT think of it as a compromise at any point?

Are we asking for too much? Or are we still living in the 60’s and just like to call ourselves Modern Indian Women?

And speaking of my man…….With all the madness and the fun and the love and the laughter…..

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Love Bits- 2

 
Sunrise in you
Sunset in me
These lingering moments
Those thoughts after
Silence and Distance
I feel you with me.
 

When I see you. The world, it stops. And all that exists for me is you and my eyes staring at you.There’s nothing else. No noise, no people, no worries, no thoughts, no yesterdays and no tomorrows. The world just stops and there’s just you. Its beautiful. When you go, the world starts again and I dont like it much. I can live in it but dont  like it. I just walk around in it, waiting for you to stop my world again. I love it when it stops. Its the most beautiful feeling in the world. Its the best thing to sense and see. That’s why I stare at you…….

And as I write this, i sing,

You and I, in this beautiful world,
Green grass, blue skies,
In this beautiful world
You and I, winding lanes as streams go by.